Kirsty is 34. As a busy hospital doctor, she’s on her feet constantly and describes what went through her mind before having foot surgery.

“I was born 10 weeks premature and I have Spastic Diaplegia. I would say it’s quite mild. It’s walking that affects me, balance, co-ordination, that sort of thing. My arms were affected when I was growing up, but my arms are fine now.

I was in the Scottish Disabled swimming squad as a teenager. It was really good for me, it was good for my fitness, my confidence and good to meet other people with a disability. When I was thinking about doing Medicine my Guidance teacher told me to recognise my limitations, but I met a girl through swimming with Spina Bifida who walked on crutches and was doing Medicine. It made me think I’ll have a go.

In medicine, you get to work overseas if you want. I did a placement in South Africa and America. That was a thing lots of people thought was a silly idea and it was fine. I did it and enjoyed it and I was fine.

Foot surgery

I walked on my tiptoes until I was 21. My joints were subluxing and I was struggling. I had foot surgery on my right foot and I had my foot realigned and my Achilles Tendon released. At the time, there wasn’t a case study on it. I felt it was worth a go because my feet were the very things that were going to take me off my feet.

When I was 29 I got my left foot fixed. The trouble was it wasn’t a standard operation. It wasn’t a case of, if this goes wrong we’ll do this. It worked out fine for me and my feet are now in a much better position. I now walk heel to toe, there’s less pressure.

First time around when I was younger I underestimated the recovery time. I was in a wheelchair for six weeks, got back on my crutches and walked slowly with a moon boot and 11 weeks after surgery I was off to South Africa and did physio myself.

After the surgery when I was 29 the surgeon told me I had to take three months off work. I think because I was a lot older it took me a lot longer to recovery.

I’m a care of the elderly doctor so I see people coming in their 70s, 80s and 90s falling over so I do worry about what it will be like when I’m older. I’m on my feet with my job and I walk a lot and stay really active so I think that’s probably helped my strength.

Everyone’s different and within reason, I think everyone has to try and keep active. I’ve been a bit lazy and I think like most people in my 20s I wasn’t doing as much exercise so now I’m working towards an open water swim and I try to do other stuff for balance.

I was lucky in my 20s as my job was active I was running around a hospital and I could be on my feet for 12 hours a day. So then when I wasn’t doing that as much I felt that I probably needed to up my own exercise and since doing that I feel a bit stronger and my balance is better.

I fall over, I don’t not do something. If I’m at a wedding and I do a ceilidh dance and I get knocked over my friends just think Kirsty’s fallen over again. I kind of just do stuff. I’m not unsafe, but I have fun. Sometimes you do things and think I can’t do this, but most of the time things can be adapted and people can be very supportive. I’ve got an amazing group of friends.

My mum would say sometimes it’s easier and sometimes it’s harder being only mildly affected by cerebral palsy. I’m trying to keep up with all my peers and sometimes that’s harder because none of them have anything wrong with them.

Deciding whether or not to have surgery

I didn’t think about it too much. I thought my feet are really sore I can’t walk on them as well now. I felt that I had to go for it.

My advice to anyone weighing up the decision to have surgery would be:

• • Get as much information as you can in a way you understand it.
  • Ask what could go wrong in the worst case scenario.
  • Find out what is the likelihood of that happening? For me it was difficult because there weren’t case studies behind my surgery. They weren’t sure if they put my foot in a better position they weren’t sure whether it would go back.
  • Ask what happens if you don’t do the surgery, what will you lose?

I left it until I felt like I really need it, like the pain and positioning of my feet were such that it was impacting on what I could do. I was thinking about my future too. My whole walking is better now. Although at the time my level of expectation of what surgery could do for me way unrealistic. I think I thought I’d be walking in stilettoes and no would notice I walked differently. I was more realistic when I was older.

Relationships

Where my confidence struggles the most is in meeting people. Relationships are so much a confidence thing. I think it is harder to meet people. Do I put out the vibes of don’t talk to me because I walk a bit funny?

When you’re in your 20s you already feel a little bit less attractive than everyone else because you walk a bit funny and then there may be other functional issues as well. Who do you talk to about that? So you don’t talk to anyone. I spoke to my mum eventually and a few of my friends.

Very little to do with relationships and sexual health with cerebral palsy is discussed. People need to know that if they are having problems there are things that can be done.

Regular therapy can help you avoid the need for surgery

“I was blessed with incredible parents. They found creative ways to help me become independent.”

I am 53 years old and was born with cerebral palsy due to a lack of oxygen during birth. The damage caused to my brain is on the right-hand side, which means that I have paralysis and restricted movement on my left side, it is known as left hemiplegia. I regard myself as being extremely lucky in that I can walk, talk, communicate and understand the environment I’m in.

When I was born there was very limited information and support in relation to CP, I can only imagine how upsetting it must have been for my parents. They were very much alone and didn’t know how active or mobile I would be. I attended Yorkhill hospital during my childhood. The visits and treatment offered clinical diagnosis but no practical living skills, and when I no longer qualified to attend Yorkhill the help ended.

Supportive parents

I have been blessed with the most incredible parents. They have done an outstanding job in supporting me to lead a full and fun life. From an early age they were creative and innovative in helping me to become as independent as possible. Even before exercise bicycles were created my dad had jammed the wheels on my bike to enable me to use my bike in the house to build strength in my leg. He adapted the lyrics in the Searchers song ‘Don’t throw your love away’ to ‘Don’t throw your leg away’ to encourage me to walk in a way that stopped me from tripping. My parents’ influence has been paramount to my current lifestyle.

School years

I attended a village primary school; I very much enjoyed my time there and was supported by friends especially when I required extra help after surgeries.

When I moved on to high school life wasn’t so easy. The building was large and I found it quite difficult to get around. The pupils weren’t all as friendly either and I experienced a lot of name calling, but my village friends stood by me. When it came to considering what to do after leaving school I was advised by teachers and guidance staff that working part-time in a shop would be a good option. I felt disappointed as I thought I had more to offer.

Choosing a career

I had a lucky break, my parents had a small family business and their accountant came to visit. I was interested in what she was doing and also liked her fancy sports car, her high heels and her pinstriped suit and thought I might like all of that too. I told my parents of my intention and they supported me all the way, arranging for extra tuition, and I left school with five Highers. Just before leaving school I learned to drive, again with my dad’s help and creativity in adapting the car. This is by far the most useful exam I have passed as it gave me my independence.

Life after school

Leaving school was daunting as I was unsure how I would get around in an unfamiliar environment without the support of my friends. Attending university full-time concerned me, I was fortunate to be offered a trainee accountants post in Milngavie. One of my colleagues helped me learn to swim and another introduced me to Glasgow Riding for the Disabled Association where I have been riding for the last 35 years. I worked there for seven years and became part qualified before moving on to work for the NHS.

Starting a family

During this time I met and married my husband Tom. He has also been an amazing support to me, helps me when he can, but also tries to put things in place that allow me to do what I can for myself.

The year after we were married I became pregnant; we were absolutely delighted as we had been unsure if my condition and the drugs I had taken would have an impact on my ability to conceive.

Jenna isn’t just my daughter, she is my friend too, her encouragement, support and love are indescribable and I am very proud to be her mum. When Jenna was young I struggled to cope with lifting and caring for a new baby, I will never forget the help and support I got from family and friends especially my mum at this time. During my maternity leave I decided to complete my accountancy exams and became a fully qualified chartered certified accountant. This was a major achievement for me and although I have the pinstriped suits, the sports car and high heels haven’t worked out. Sports cars are over rated anyway in our West of Scotland climate!

I now work for Audit Scotland. I have worked there for 20 years and I am currently the Director of Audit Quality and Appointments.

Therapy vs. surgery

I was introduced to Cerebral Palsy Scotland at the age of 44. I became aware of the adult services offered by Cerebral Palsy Scotland and went for an assessment – excited but apprehensive. I hadn’t had any specialist input on cerebral palsy until that day. I was struggling at the time with stiff and painful joints and muscle contractions in my left arm, and thought the only way forward was painful surgery with a long recovery period.

During the assessment I learned lots about my cerebral palsy and why things didn’t work the way they should.

I discussed my goals with Kirsteen the therapist and put my posture top of the list. Learning that my left leg is longer than my right leg was news to me too – I had been wearing the heel block in the wrong shoe! I remember the day clearly as it was the day that my lonely journey with cerebral palsy ended; I had a lifeline and support network in helping me to manage my condition.

During my first block of therapy Kirsteen developed a programme that improved my muscle tone and tightness, which has significantly reduced the need for surgical intervention. A fantastic result as I would much rather avoid surgery.

My next block of therapy was based more on practical life skills. Coping with stairs and busy places especially on uneven surfaces is particularly challenging for me. Kirsteen has given me solutions so I can feel more in control facing these situations. She also arranged for me to see an orthotist to provide a splint for my elbow as the contractions and painful spasms could result in loss of use over an extended period. The splint provided was less than suitable, it was heavy, cumbersome and required assistance from two people to fit it.

When I showed it to Kirsteen her frustration was clear. She asked Sandra the occupational therapist to get her electric frying pan out. I was a bit worried as I had no idea what she was going to do with it! Sandra melted a piece of plastic, which she moulded into the shape of my elbow and created a splint that is both practical and comfortable. It will also help to avoid the need for future surgery.

Therapy packages are creative, fulfilling, fun and very satisfying. The focus is on ability and not disability; it’s what you can do that matters.

In 2015 I joined the Board of Cerebral Palsy Scotland. It was a privelege to be involved in decision making and represent CP service users. Seeing Bobath Scotland transition to Cerebral Palsy Scotland was a real highlight for me as it created better awareness of the service’s available. In 2022 I retired from the Board but still have a close connection with the charity. During this time I was introduced to Dr Kirsty Colquhoun who also has CP and became a very active Board member. It’s great to have a friend who experiences similar challenges. We are both passionate about seeking solutions to assist people with CP and removing barriers and negative expectations.

My advice to anyone with cerebral palsy is to quote my favourite proverb: “Don’t be pushed by your problems, be led by your dreams.”

“I never thought about ageing I just carried on… physiotherapy even at my age has made a huge difference to how I can move.”

Jackie Maciera is 65, has worked for 32 years, been a local councillor and now works with the NHS. Here he reflects on the difference recent physiotherapy has made to his mobility.

“I was born with CP and I’m now 65. It took until I was I was five to be diagnosed. I was a floppy toddler. I couldn’t sit up. I went through a lot of pioneering operations. At 14 years old I started to get up and walk with sticks and I did that for a few years. I went to Kelburn School which meant I was able to have therapy every day. Once I left school I didn’t get any physiotherapy after that. I didn’t think about it, I just carried on with life.

If I’d had physio throughout my life it would have kept the tone of my muscles supple and kept everything ticking over, but it never happened. It was only last year I discovered that Cerebral Palsy Scotland were doing an adult therapy programme. It’s made a difference even at my age to how I can move. I’ll never be able to walk any great distances because I’m mainly in a wheelchair, but it’s helping, it’s keeping me slacker.

The benefits of therapy

When I think about how stiff I was physio has made a huge difference to how much more relaxed I am. I couldn’t lift my leg to put my shoe on. After the therapy it was much easier to bring my leg up. I’ve got a sock aid that puts socks on, and I could put my shoe on. It’s a case of for a short while I don’t feel so stiff and I don’t get as many spasms. That was the first physio I’d had since I’d left school.

Back then we never got any information at all, so we just accepted what was there. But now you shouldn’t be accepting it. Seek out what help you can get. When you move into adulthood that’s the main part of your life, you want to go to work, have a family you do all these things. Seek out opportunities, organisations you could work with.

I’ve worked all my life, 32 years and then I became a local Councillor and moved into the NHS. It’s been great fun. I’ve done a lot. Employment is still a big issue and support for employment is still a big issue.

I never thought about ageing, I just carried on. I was active and into sports in a big way, swimming basketball. I think if I’d had more physio in life I would have been walking a bit more but hindsight is a wonderful thing. I don’t look back. The pioneering surgery and work they did then probably led to what they have now.

It’s difficult to find adult services and sometimes it’s about getting the right social worker. It has to be a partnership and listening both ways.

Cerebral palsy is so varied and the level of disability you have is so varied, but my advice to anyone turning 18 now is to not fall into the trap I did. Don’t just because you’re young you can climb the world, think about what help you had when you were in children’s services and think about which services you might need to continue being at your best. Seek out help, find it and be prepared to fight for it.

To mums and dads I’d say I know you love your child so much but don’t wrap them up in cotton wool. They’ll outlast you and you have to prepare them for independence all the time. Let them do sport, let them do things. My Dad was tough on me; you have to be prepared for life.

Would I change anything about your life? I’d get physio every day, but other than that I wouldn’t change a thing. I’ve done more in my life than a lot of able bodied people. I’ve done things, seen things most people never do.

“It’s a battle to get her to do half an hour of physio, but she’ll do two hours of gymnastics.”

Melissa’s mum Jennifer offers her advice on the difficult early years, why you should always be prepared for surprises, and why confidence is probably the greatest improvement to come out of therapy.

“The best advice I got from one therapist was;  “We don’t know how this child is going to turn out”. It all depends on how much input they get and how they respond. The most annoying thing is that you desperately want to know how your child will turn out. However, as hard as it is, it is absolutely the best way. Just do as much as you can for your child and they will surprise you.

Melissa is kind of wobbly, she has athetoid cerebral palsy, she’s not well co-ordinated, and her balance isn’t good. But she does make herself understood. She does walk, and she does career around like a madwoman, especially if there’s a soft gym mat under her.

Advice to other parents

It is a very scary thing when you’re diagnosed but actually it’s just a different world. It’s not as bad as you might think. When Melissa was younger I’d think parents were looking at me feeling sorry for me because I had a child who was different, but there’s a lot of worse things in the world than CP and Melissa can’t imagine life without it because it’s part of her. You do just get used to things.

Going to nursery

Melissa went to mainstream school from specialist nursery. The staff in the specialist nursery worked so well I was worried about her leaving that environment. Our physio made a request for Bobath therapy in the summer holidays before she started school.

Melissa wasn’t actually walking. Her therapists asked “Can you stand?” “How long can you stand for?” Can you do this?” I think Melissa suddenly thought “Oh I’m doing a lot of things I didn’t think I could do. I think that’s what put the idea into Melissa’s head that she could walk. Two nights into the therapy we were at home and she just said “I’m going to walk” and she did, right across the living room floor. She was ready but she didn’t have the confidence.

Once she was on her feet it made everything so much easier, dressing, going to the loo, and now she can join in with different activities. She always wanted to go to a dance class, once she was on her feet she just pitched in with everybody else and then she started to go to gymnastics and different things like that.

Primary school

Melissa wasn’t continent or walking at four so she did a year in a special primary and started mainstream school a year later.

She has a specialist OT and a physio and they go into school and support the PSA and teachers to keep her on the straight and narrow and provide her with the equipment she needs.

Melissa is a sociable kid and enjoys school. Sometimes she gets left out. She’ll have friends here after school but not always get invited to other people’s houses. The parents who do have her round tend to work in the care sector – they get it. Some parents are scared, they don’t know what to make of Melissa, they worry about not being able to understand her, as it affects her speech. That’s quite difficult.

After school activities

Melissa does canoeing, gymnastics, drama and dancing. She doesn’t get wrapped in cotton wool at home. I don’t think she is ever that keen on structured therapy. It’s a battle to get her to do half an hour of physio, but she’ll do two hours of gymnastics on a Saturday and hates to miss that.